people c'mon

one thing I've noticed about people is how insecure they get when they're NOT in large groups of prople. they love love love all their friends but wonder which ones love them - are those friends just their friend for the sake of the group or do they truly care for them? it's always a "we all" type thing, everyone's afraid of inviting people to hang out alone.
I'm at Pig Out at the Park right now(hallelujah smartphones) and people are just so much fun. I spend too much time around them, I think. I decided about a week ago that I enjoy drumming so much because it's the only time I get alone to sit and think and worship on my own terms. a lot of the time I'm clueless of the fact that I'm even playing (to) anything.
I read an article earlier on secular music and dead worship. "If He can do us a favor and paint the sky every morning and night, then the least we could do is stop singing crappy songs."
to me, there IS such a thing as crappy music. yes, even if it's worship. I used to have the verse memorized but now I don't remember it... something along the lines of "Oh, to play our instruments and to PLAY THEM WELL for You, God." people seem to skip the "well" part of that. oh WELL. time to go stuff myself in bad overpriced food that will probably kill me.